When Life is Falling Apart

There are moments in life that leave us breathless.

Not in awe, but in collapse.

The relationship ends.

The business fails.

The body breaks down.

The vision of the future disappears overnight.

And suddenly, what once felt solid becomes dust.

We call it a crisis. But underneath, it may be something else entirely - a dismantling. 

Of what no longer can be your reality, even if you hold onto it with fear of losing everything you have known for a long time.

This creates a friction between what you are living and what you came to live. And your Soul knows. 

Your Soul whispers, calls, and eventually, because you don’t listen, she breaks down all the things that are blocking the path of your arising.

I know how it feels, I’ve been there multiple times.

The most impactful change that shifted me into my dream reality was the loss of everything in a few minutes.

I knew instantly, this is the force of Love.

This is Divine guidance through my Soul urging me to step into the life I was meant to live instead of keeping myself small in a corner, supporting someone else’s foolish desires and illusions.

I had to choose myself in a situation where there was nothing else to choose. 

Most people don’t consciously choose transformation.

They choose comfort, familiarity, even pain, until one day, their Soul can no longer bear it.

So life intervenes.

Shift happens.

The structures collapse.

The masks fall off.

The distractions stop working.

And we are left facing the truth.

It can feel like everything is falling apart.

We might feel like drowning in darkness.

We panic and grasp. But if we allow this process to carry us, we realize that what is really happening is that everything false is falling away.

In many ancient traditions, the breaking down of a life is not seen as a failure but as a rite of passage.

In our modern society, we need to keep the masks up and smile, while excruciating pain holds us hostage.

But no one can know how we truly feel.

Shame and guilt won’t allow it.

I am here to tell you this:

If you’ve been building a life that fell apart, no matter how much effort you’ve put in.

No matter how many mistakes you made.

No matter how “horrible” you think you are. 

Stupid.

Unable.

Undeserving.

Unworthy.

Or whatever you tell yourself…

You are not being punished.

You are being initiated.

Initiated into truth.

Initiated into surrender.

Initiated into a version of yourself that was always there, buried beneath layers of conditioning, performance, and survival.

The loss is not the end.

It is the threshold.

When the ground falls out beneath you, this is where the real work begins.

You stop asking, “How do I survive this?”

And you start asking, “Who am I really? How can I truly thrive?”

It’s not about rebuilding the old life.

It’s about creating the life that matches your Soul Signature.

Not the beliefs imprinted by your family and society, not your fear and self-imposed smallness.

But the unique blueprint of who you are underneath everything you are not, encoded in your Soul.

If you're in that place where everything feels like it’s crumbling, know that you are not broken.

You are breaking free.

You don’t have to walk through it alone.

This is why I created the Soul Signature Method I work with at the Xamani Retreats.

This method will open the doors of your mind and guide you to your original Divine design.

To yourself.

To your vision.

To a life that is filled with magic.

Because I’ve lived this collapse.

I’ve cried on the floor, in unbearable despair. 

I wanted to die many times.

And I’ve walked through the darkness and pain, facing it and uncovering the deeply hidden knowing that I am worthy of something extraordinary.

Now I live it.

Now, I hold the space for others as they are designing their lives from a place of self-love and validation.

This Is your Invitation

If something in your life is falling apart…Let it.

Let yourself step into what’s next with intention.

Because on the other side of this journey is everything you want - the Love and joy radiating YOU.

This is the beginning.

I am here when you’re ready.

~ Nika